Thank you sky! Problem is, I don't want to heal or remember in all honesty.

I've already tried to face a past blackout and it caused another blackout and that one was terrible. I KNOW I'm not ready to face my past at all, I just want to know when I wasn't me and who was out.

This is scaring me right now because I don't want to lose that kind of time again, not with my daughter growing up, I can't miss that much of her life!

Thanks for your post it was very kind and GREATLY appreciated! I hope you are well!