Thank you Erik It was quite the adventure for sure ^__^ I can use more adventures in my life to boost my mood. I don't know what brought my friends to me but I'm glad they're here and if they ever leave me I dunno how I'll feel. I know Caleb left and I tell people online who ask about him (outside of PC my "alts" or whatever they are, are separate from me and call me their cousin to keep us separate so they can be them and I can be me without preconceived ideas of us) that he's in uni becoming a pediatrician. But I don't actually miss him except when Nakai misses him. Then I just feel bad for Nakai cause they were best friends. But if anything I feel like he's become part of me, the solemn depressed soul part that has been traumatized but for some reason refusing to curl up and die. I can be depressed and happy go lucky at the same time now when before I couldn't be both. Maybe that's part of why I'm depressed when I'm with happy people and almost hyper when I'm with depressed people? Nah. . . I'm over thinking this one lolz.