Thanks everyone. Its been tough. I came home from work today. Got out early and just slept all night which i needed. So tired. Its alot on me because i want to be there for a friend and just feel like i am not doing enough. We have been close for 2 yrs and i always tried to help. He has someone else in his life now and it makes me sad. Hope this doesnt sound selfish . The most important thing is him to be well. And if she helps great. I just sometimes feel but i was there for you for yrs and kinda pushed away. I know its a little selfish to think that way and then that makes me feel worse so i cry more.