I am getting scared. I am sinking so low. Down and down and down and down spiraling into the drain.

I texted T twice. Once yesterday and once today--nada response.

I feel like I might need the hospital. But I can't go there. I have OCD germ phobia and the two don't mix.

There doesn't seem to be any safe place for me to be right now.

My mom and I live together and her parents are visiting. So, they have invaded my home. I am in my room with the door shut and am hoping they leave me alone.

I just want to sleep. So I am taking extra (unathorized) of my meds. I hope they kick in soon.

I don't want to be this way. And I want my head to shut up with it's usual litany.

I feel like screaming HELP!!!!!! But I don't know what would help or who to scream it to.