Try explaining anyway, FooZe. It may enlighten me
I'm sure it willbe to my satisfaction.
Roxy, thank you for your reply and your hugs
I just wrote as my status on facebook after seeing pictures of my Twin:
"Just because some people are beautiful, doesn't mean they're nice people or that they have talents. People with talents, I feel, are people who should be more valued in the world, not people who just have the looks and nothing more."
I think that says a lot.
I just said to a friend that my Twin's beauty makes me cry. She is, in fact absolutely gorgeous, everyone loves her, but she is getting such a bad name for herself by messing with the wrong guys and screwing people over. She has a lot of people against her. Her personality is not nice at all and she cares for no-one but herself. She has no talents but charm and she has a dead end job that requires no talent/skill and it makes me sad that she is in the category of "beautiful with no talents". I hate saying she has no talents, but she just doesn't apply herself and doesn't believe in that sort of stuff.
I sit here crying, wishing I had more friends, wishing I was as beautiful as her, wishing that I could just be valued for my talents... I've just started a new song and have the rough guitar riff and vocal melody recorded on my phone. I have 2 backing singers lined up, who I hand picked myself as my friends and fellow vocalists with absolutely stunning voies but low confidence. They will be recording with me in the studio. I want to get out there and do open mic nights and gigs and other stuff like that, but my confidence is so crap and my set wouldn't even last half an hour!
My new song, I think, is the most awesome song I have written yet and I absolutely adore it! Yet I feel like my talents are not enough. I don't feel beautful. My favourite picture of me as a 17 year old is:
http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?i...6&id=524521915
That was just before the last gig I did with college and yes, I love that photo. I really made an effort for that gig. But I don't feel beautiful like her. Although.. She's dyed her hair to be what others want her to be and she's not a nice person deep down.. She still has lots of friends and people want to be around her and she's not depressed, anxious, nor is she abused, or trying to recover from an ED. See?
I find this so hard
