((((peaches))) Wow! I feel like I could have written what you just did. After reading the reply asking about IFS therapy, which is what I am doing with my t, I did a search and found your posts on surrendering. I am right in that same spot, how do I nurture my inner child when I didn't receive it, how do I get that from t and how much?.... just about everything you posted. I am very confused about how to do this work and that never ending aching need that is there all the time. I don't even think I am making sense, but I am feeling like there is someone who can finally understand.
I also have dissociative problems that are along the scale somewhere, and I did receive a DID dx after my last 2 hospitalizations although we're not sure about that. I guess I don't really care what the actual dx is, just what to do to help me.
I am really interested in discussing this therapy with you, we seem to have so many of the same issues. I get confused with all the "parts" stuff too.
I'm sorry if I am rambling, I just feel I can relate so much.
Please take care of yourself, and pm me if you want, I really think we can understand each other.