I wasn't supposed to be alone. The time kept getting pushed back. Then finally it was too late. I don't know exactly why. But it happened. Over and over. For a moment I even thought about my wrist. I never do where ppl can see. now I ddnt do my wrist but my arm has a few. Long sleeves are in my future. The rest no one sees anyway. I think I felt abandoned. Alone. Let down. Disappointed. So I punished myself. I told someone. They said they would be here today. Still hours away. I'm in pain.