I'm Vicki, I'm 16. I can't let pandora's box open. I sit on it so none of the feelings come out. But it is getting us all into trouble. Our person called the T yesterday because I was all upset. Then the T called when I was just about to throw up. I do that. Or I don't eat. We haven't been eating good because of me. Our person doesn't want to do that she said. I just don't know how to deal. I don't want to deal. There's stuff in there that's really bad. If I let the feelings and the memories out, I think that the Little One will die. She can't deal with
anything. Our T called just when I was going to throw up. **** it's the only way to
get rid of this feeling in my stomache and the choking in my throat. I want to do it but my person said to ask you all what to do. I can do this cause none of you can see me or know me. I'm not sure you are all safe, but it doesn't matter. I just want *her* off my back!
Vicki.