Thanks everyone. What hurts me is they continue to accuse me of abusing their own mental health issues (bipolar) and then accuse me of lying about my depression which i have fought on and off for 20 years !! Which i hid from everyone!!
Well last night i went out for a meal and did enjoy myself, far too much wine lol! But that blasted black cloud is slow to lift but it is at least lifting ! I guess it will take time to finally go away. I do feel though that i am moving on or beginning to after a week of hell. Finally. Exercise will do me good too. Am resting today but will be walking soon. That will help i am sure. Spending the day in bed does not help ! I need to get active again and get back to doing things i enjoy ! Blocking them off i think is a start. To think i had two of them stay with me in my home as well. How stupid could i have been ! I only gave love. They repaid me with hell !!

Thank you to everyone who i dont even know who has stood by me !! That has helped ernormously !! (hey i like these icons !! )

On a postive note i got a first class choo choo ticket to London !! Gonna travel in style. And why not i think i deserve a treat once in a while !!

Onwards And Upwards !!