You and my husband are in the sambe boat...he explains what he his feeling as constantly walking on egg shells...has shell shock, etc. because of my PTSD. I have violent outbursts and they are always directed at my husband. They are getting to be more rare now that I've started treating my PTSD but his shell shock has not gone away yet. I discuss this with my psychiatrist and he doesn't think my husband will be effected by this long-term, but I can tell you that it very much effects him now.

This is probably one of the biggest struggles I have in treating my PTSD....how am I going to be able to make amends and how long is it going to be until my husband can go back to feeling relaxed around me instead of being afraid of me.

Now that I've been diagnosed and understand a little bit about PTSD and the violent outbursts (which started as small outbursts and kept getting progressivley worse and turned violent) I'm able to control my actions a little more each time I have one. So they are not only getting rarer, but they are not as violent...and a couple of times I've been able to recognize when one is coming on and I've managed (somehow) to stop them. (Yeah, progress)

Can I ask if your husband has been diagnosed? If you don't want to answer, please don't feel obligated to...I don't want to pry. Or, are you concernced you might possibly have PTSD now? Again, not meaning to pry.