Does anyone with severe germ phobia have any experience with a crisis stay (for depression/suicide) at a mental ward?

I don't want to die. So, if I lost control I'd want the hospital. I'm getting close but what I need more than anything is a med overhaul for my bipolar and OCD.

But if I was in hospital i couldn't take thier pills.

I also couldn't eat thier food or use the bathroom.

Has anyone gone through something similar?