Euphrasie,

First I want to say, Welcome!!!! Psych Central is a great place to make friends, to vent your feelings, to have someone who has been in your shoes support you, to just be yourself and feel good about it.

Coming from me, who was emotionally, mentally, physically, and sexually abused, it is hard to know who you are, and how to act. It comes from trial and error. I have learned some really hard lessons in life, by the mistakes i have made and the hearts I have broken.
You sometimes feel as if you will alsways be a heartbreaker, or that you will always do the wrong thing. It will all come in time, just don't give up!
Like my signature says: Failure is not about failling down.......... Its about not getting up again.

Keep going to counseling, keep talking about the things that bother you or that you dont understand....
Life is complicated and no one has all the answers, but i can understand your feelings. I am here if you want to vent to me anytime.... ok?