Hi clk
First, let me say congrats on going 5 weeks, and extra big congrats on resisting the urge tonight. I know it's not easy!
About going out in the car again tonight. Is there someone that could go with you to keep you company? If not what about playing a radio station so you're hearing a real voice? Or maybe placing something in the passenger seat that you find comforting, that makes you feel safe?
I'm sorry if this isn't much help but please hang in there, be strong, and know we care, ok?
Peace and Hugs for you,
Julia
xox