Thank you for answering me Lost.

I went out and just came back. Radio voices are a good idea. The sight of my laptop sidetracked me earlier in the evening so I left it by the door so I could come home and post. I was talking to myself a lot in the car. Putting something in the passenger seat is a really really good idea. I have a thing about dolls and my children's dolls that make me cry. I thought that maybe I could take one of their dolls to talk to but it might make me cry to do that. I feel very safe with certain dolls. I wish I could bring one into therapy to talk to- put her next to my t.

I dont have urges right now. I feel like any minute I could change. I'll sit on the computer for a while and go to bed.

Thanks for caring. It makes me feel less alone.