Thankyou for your replies.still not got to a pc,so not able to write all what i want but i really appreciate what u guys wrote.
They have a crisis line here,they offer counselling too.im on the waiting list,it was 12weeks but has gone up.ive been on it since april.i phoned a few weeks ago to find out wat was goin on and told its now longer.i think i will fone back and ask them,as suggested.when i phoned b4 it was a man that answered and that threw me a bit.i will fone again,is at least a first port of call.the past few weeks ive been feeling a bit stronger,i mite make a gp appt.am i wrong to think its bad that im dragged thru this court thing all year and offered no support.i want to ask someone about it.i wish id testified,i now think it was mayb important 4 me to do.he kept changing lawyer so went on 4 8months or so.i only chickend out the last tym it went to trial,and that time it was heard in full and a verdict given.hes appealing,but just the sentence.maybe i cant afford to regret this.