I have a plan with my T to ask my pdoc at Tuesday appt. to get on a certain cocktail of meds. Clozaril (anti-psych), Welbutrin XL (ad), Lamictal (ms) and effexor (for my ocd).

My head keeps saying NO! NO MEDS NO MEDS and quit taking the one med you are on.

It says if you are mentally ill, you need to suffer and experience the illness that god or satan or whatever gave you. And you probably arent mentally ill anyway--you are just a lazy faker who is too cowardly to get a job and support yourself.

So, what the hell am I supposed to say to my pdoc on Tuesday?