hey i'm only 14 so maybe you don't want a kid telling ya anything, that's up to you. i used to cut all the time, not bad you know but enough always enough arms thighs you name it because it made me feel better about all the crap going on with the adults. the t it didn't bother him a whip maybe it did but he didn't let on if it did he even let me show and accted interested in me and why i felt so bad. so anyway maybe if you share with your t all the feelings and stuff as muchas you can then you can tell t instead of puking you know?

i write too i write lots of gory stuff sometimes and also i do pasted pictures and i let jj do some too sometimes cuz it makes her better too. i wrote some stuff recently like petunia just did, only for our circles and sent to the t the way he acted i guess it upset him cuz he repeated that i had written that i feel i'm already dead to him. been feeling more like cutting again so i guess i should talk to t some. it's been like forever since i have zuc we tried to let the adults figure things out and they are useless if you aks me i tried the puking thing but it didn't do snuff for me unless it was to really irk someone else in the circles. but adults eat the tums like they're going out of style and what do i care? i think t thinks somebody is always causing whatever is going on with us and like nothing is just because it's a human body you know? i hate being blamed for everything. nona (cuz i have no name)