Other than the having kids part and cycling every 7-10 days, you sound like you are describing my life. I am Bipolar I. I am getting more an more OCD. In fact, I plan to take apart my closet today and rearrange it because 85% of my clothes don't fit me now and they're squishing all the space for my new clothes (bought on a buying spree this week).

I stay up for days with little sleep. In fact, I've been in this semi manic - mixed - manic episode since July 31st...no meds have been able to slow me down, not even sleep aids. still getting 4-6 hours. I feel invincible, or like "Wonder Woman" as I call it. Haha...not superwoman.

I used to be so anti meds that I wouldn't even take a Tylenol for extreme period pain until I was like 23. I tried meds for my depression at 20, had a bad reaction and vowed never to try them again. I did for 8 years, then it got so bad again I had to try something new. Took me a year more of depression until I became manic...happens about once a year.

You seem like rapid cycling bipolar to me too. I wouldn't mention that to a psychiatrist. I'd just go in with all your lists, journals, and symptoms. He or she will diagnose you. You also seem OCD. I make lists and charts too and wash my hands probably 50+ times a day. I also speed when I'm manic because everyone seems to be going so slow. And I make dangerous blind passes on 2 way highways with no divider!

Bad me. I'm just saying I identify and you should definitely seek treatment and don't give up on the process. I have several times, but they weren't even treating me for the right disease until a few months ago. It takes time and you will have some bad reactions to meds, but there are good ones out there for you. It's too dangerous not to get it treated. It only gets worse with time. Just tell your doc that you need to be upped on everything very slowly because of your reactions.

Take care and keep us posted.

Here for you.