Thanks ratanddragon

I did read that article. All I can say is "Yes, that is me" At least I know what the problem has always been now. It is pretty hard to solve a problem when one does not know what it is. Not for lack of trying though...I feel very sad for myself when I think about how long and how hard I have fought against this invisible enemy. It seems I am not a bad, failed human being after all. Just a badly hurt and damaged one. Here's to finding the help I need to heal.