I promise to safe. Still fighting this. Woke up thinking maybe the med change did not work. I do not give up, if i give up and something wonderful down the road is suppose to happen, i would not be there. I am just at a very low point. Will see pdoc on tuesday. What is ínteresting to note is that the thoughts of ending only occur at night. So i give you all my word to stay safe. Thank you all for being here.