(((((((((((((((((((treehouse)))))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry. I so understand. My children are grown and I don't remember a lot of their lives. But the good news is that your children are young and you are getting help. Think about where you were last year and where you are now. You will get more and more of your life back as you heal.

Perhaps in the meantime, you can journal about your children. You never know what might be written down and it might help you have some memories of your children that you didn't know were there.

Please take gentle care of yourself as you work through this.