You got it. I thought you all would have thought i was crazy. It is such a relief to be validated. No more answering calls unless i know who is calling. No answering the door unless i know who it is. And you know what? I've got my motivation back at least for tonight. I am going out into the world and i am going to get a good job and work hard in therapy and take a break from relationship looking until i can tell the good from the bad. And all this because i wanted some ooh la la. I ended up a long way from there. You all are terrific! One interesting thing to note is that researchers have found is these people do not even have the same brain wave patterns that humans do. Creepy!