ok here we go, i love my wife alot but we have several issues one that really bothers me is her "moods" while i have moods you have moods we all have moods shes like a snarling monster if you get near her shell bite your head off.
Heres a few examples ...
Shell be going to the kitchen from lets say being on her laptop ill go sneak in there while shes getting a coke ill walk up and do a sexy mans voice and say something off the wall like "gee didnt the waiter get the for you" shell look at me and push me away and say ha ha funny then walk away and im like hmmm.
Then other times shell go to bed and not say goodnite or anything then she had the nerve and tell me once when i smacked her butt "dont smack me anymore this is my body and i dont want touched" im like wooo this was just a smack (not a hard one ether ladies) and she turned it into like some violation attack to me.
Now heres my thinking .... even if its typical guys
1. Woman complain that they dont get enough mental attention, i do thigns freom writing notes in her lunch to putting something extra in there, i ask how her day was and what she did and listen to her complain and what not then all of a sudden its like do i excist.
2. Women get mad or what have you that thier other half look at other girls .. well my wife IS the one i look at .. i bet other guys have dreams of my wife. While im not saying shes some hot model but my eyes are like "man is she hot etc.. " others may dream of hot sexy models .. i dream of my wife.
3. I tell her several times aday i love her and shes beautiful and besides her looks (and she very wells knows) i care about making sure she is loved and all that i get her flowers for no reason to candy and many other things just because i felt like it.
Why am i wining about this .. cause while i have alot of issues myself im tired of going to bed at night feeling alone and feeling like im living with someone who is my friend rather then my wife. She wont even let me see her in her panties .. while that maybe stupid .. why after 2 years of marriage i feel like im married to someone who doesnt even love me but spys on me ..
as a past computer tech i have all the goodies to block/lock/log and all on my system however i have choose not to because this is my wife and i have nothing to hide, but its the fact now i feel like talking about this she will go tell her family like ive done something bad (this happened once before, when her sister called me up and chewed me out for being involved in a computer tech forum)
However now here im doing what i want, but i cant bare to think her and i are over, but as ive told her last night if she doesnt act like a wife then maybe we shouldnt be together. It hurts me real bad but i need a wife and lover not just a best friend. While the best friend part is good with her to a point i want more .. this is why i married her .. i guess my idea of marriage is alot different then i thought .. since this is my first and this is her second.
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