Thanks everybody for your replies....

I certainly don't want to take any kind of medication....I'm sure I will be fine...

The problem is that I've been experiencing this void...and I know why....I'm single and not being able to find a relationship or if I find that person, I can't keep it....

Yes, I do think about dead sometimes....but because of my belief, I know I got to fix myself in this world, otherwise, I can rebirth here with more troubles....and dead won't end to my misery and sadness....so, suicide is the last in my least

It sounds funny but I'm going to believe that my new place has been cursed....since I moved here, I didn't sleep well at night at all....always bad dreams....and sleepless nights that I had to take pills....My relationship with my boyfriend went really bad and he stop contacting me all of a sudden....same as my relationship with other friends.....It feels since I moved here in April, I'm going to be lonelier and lonelier.....sounds a little bit spooky, but even my sister told me there is some negative energy with this appartment....hate to blame stuff on the place....but that's what I'm feeling....

I'm going to exercise more....but I feel like I'm lost!

thanks again
with love
Marjan