hey, Pegs...
hugs ok?
handshake?

random thought but perhaps you being knackered has a bit to do with it? when you are that exhausted, it's hard to do what we need to do to protect ourselves...
jmo/jme, but this feeling is one that bites butt very hard when we least expect it. many times I fail to remember that "they" had many of my formative years to engrave those feelings in my heart...that there are still people who would bring me down if I let them.
it angers me, first at myself for reacting in an old way. then I have to acknowledge and let go of my anger towards them.

please be kind to yourself