thankyou all you guys, really. Im going to try bear in mind what you all have said. Also going to phone the doctors tomorrow and try get back in touch with my creative side, I did used to be into that kind of things. I used to be good at drawing but the past few years its like my mind wont let me, too frustrated or I dont know. Anyway I'm wanting to break these barriers down and am quite enthusiastic about doing so.

Thanks again, sincerely and sorry I dont do the responses justice, I find it hard to use the forums but I am glad I posted.