Hi, FeelingSad! I find the kind of situation you are in among the saddest and roughest of life. Sure, in time the pain subsides, but at first it can be suffocating.
Answers may or may not come, but take care of yourself first. Go ahead and be sad, AND try to pamper yourself with your favorite things.
*Rohag - you know you're no good at relationship advice; stop now before you put your feet in your mouth...*
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.