I wanted to thank everyone in the DD forum for the support I've received these past few weeks since joining. Everyone's been helping me learn so much about DDs and myself.

Three times now a little has been in the chats. I'm not aware so I hope they're behaving well and following the rules. I don't know if I have DDNOS or DID or maybe I'm just making this all up for who knows what reasons, which is a real thought I've been playing with the past few days. If it weren't for you guys I would have never known that I have alts, I would've kept believing that I just had a couple imaginary friends.

I do have an imaginary friend he's a ninja and has been with me since I was reaaaally little. I came up with him after watching The Three Ninjas with my cousin. He's rocky except he looks like a smily face ninja and has a very simple shape. . .kinda chibi-ish. So yeah he's most definitely imaginary lol!

You guys have given me the courage to talk to my T about what I've been going through and I'm realizing I'm not crazy for hearing people in my head or losing time or co-existing with a 15 year old boy in my head at work to get through it. So thank you.

Thank you everyone for your personal experiences you've shared, please don't stop as it helps me see that I'm not alone in what I'm going through even though I'm still pretty much in denial. I keep finding myself coming back to this forum time and time again because I understand and everything sounds so much like what I've been going through.

I don't understand how to communicate with my insiders. But I've started thinking to myself conscientiously as if I were talking to someone else hoping that'll start some line of communication. The first distinct voice I heard and was able to communicate was a toddler girl who was scared to go to sleep because of a movie we watched. The second was an angry man who I've never heard before. He cussed me out then ended the conversation with "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" That really upsetted me but more than being upset I was curious about who this was and why he would hate me if he's part of me, does that mean he hates myself? Does he want to hurt me?

So yeah this is a long post for an even longer journey to come. I hope to continue to learn as much as I can and gain a better understanding of what's been happening and why I didn't know about them for over 20 years now? And most importantly maybe I'll find myself. Thank you everyone.