Thanks for all of your comments and advice. I will probably try soon but I might run it by my t on Tuesday first.

Elysium... This debate has been worn out (not trying to sound harsh). Yes I want my alts to stay and I don't think getting rid of them would heal me but do more damage. My life isn't just a few traumatic events but a series of them and they never stop. If my alters leave I will be forced to face these traumas and alone. Therefor I never wish for them to go away and I don't wish to know what has happened in my previous blackouts either. They are too much for me to handle and more than likely always will be.

I do thank you for your comment and I am sorry if my comment came off as rude even the smallest bit, but the debating and fighting in this forum has made me grow tired. Part of me doesn't even want to post in here any more but I keep doing it in hopes that one day people will stop trying to convince me of the things that I do not believe or want.

My reason for coming on here is to get support which I have never gotten in my entire life. That and understand DID better so I will know what is going on in this head. I do not wish for my "alters" to be out 24/7 and I do not wish for them to go away. I just wish to remember when they are out.

Thanks for all of your replies and I hope everyone is well!