Thanks Lynnn....

The thing is that I don't want to get back to him at all...I told him before, that I don't see future with him....He's so selfish and mean to everybody...besides, he has a STD that I don't want to catch at all....
I might felt love for him, but thinking about long term relationship with him was a no no!!!
Well...He knows that....He waited...but I don't want that kind of relationship to share my guy with tons of other women...no...and being afraid each time that I have s.. with him to catch his disease....I've been tested and I'm clean....I don't want to put myself in trouble....I think I should have said "NO" to him at very beginning when he told me about his STD....I was just so in to him and my doctor told me I can protect myself...but interesting, yesterday one of my girlfriend told me that her friend got this STD even while they were using condoms....then I thought God was with me to get rid of him....
I don't have anything against of that poor girl....I wanted to go and talk to her and tell her to be very careful, because he can move very quickly and she can be left out with an incurable disease! I kinda feel even obligated to tell her....but then I am so tired of the whole drama that I want to stay away....It's not really my business, they are adult....
Past few days I was so tired...I think I have lack of Iron and B12....I'm going to get tested today....I think my sleep problems, mood changes and body aches are all because of Iron and B12 deficiency....I had very low Iron and B12 last year and my doctor puts me on pills, I had to go get tested, but I didn't....
I want my old me back to me....and I hope it will....
In term of getting into another relationship right now, it's a no no for me...I need to heal and I'm going to do that....I hate to jump from one relationship to the other...It doesn't work....besides, I don't see anybody that I felt connected with....hope one day....

thanks everybody again
with love
Marjan