Today I feel like such a drone. Going through the motions. Feeling like I want to cry but it won't come out and I don't want it to come out where people can see. I want to go back to being perky and friendly and for the most part happy. I feel as if this funk is going to last forever. I feel sick to my stomach and lack energy but if I want energy I need to eat. I don't want to eat. I want to smile today they don't come naturally. Its forced. There is a tightness in the pit of my stomach. My heart aches it is so heavy. I notice everything going on around me which is strange since I feel like my brain is going in slow motion.