I feel and think I have symptons of bp...Thing is, do I feel this way now that I am getting older? I can say one things, I abused a certain drug a bit too much..Mushrooms, (Magic Mushrooms)... Now I feel that I have done them a bit and they made me view the world differently...In a good way but after doing them a bit it would also teach you the faults in your life and I feel like I need to do certain things in order to keep myself happy then again still have plenty of things that keep me down and depressed.... It's scary... I always feel like when people are talking to me they are trying to set me in a trap of some sort. As if they are going to decieve me in a sort of way. Or I feel that when I am talking they take it differently and think I am lying. I rationalize a bit too much thinking otherwise of what people tell me (certain people that i know). Anyone that could respond to anything, I'm reaching far for answers with what I am going through hopefully I'll get something... Bye, Ethen 20 yrs. old. <font color="red"> </font>