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Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets
That is all I can say. I feel guilty and afraid. I feel like I will be judged and if someone finds out, I will no longer be accepted. They do not understand the pain. They do not understand what I am holding. They do not know what I am going through. A failure. That is what I am. Fighting for so long, but still.......................................................
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Dps,
When one is learning to walk one falls down numerous times but eventually learns to do it. SI I think is like this because at least for myself I kept falling down and had a hard time getting up (all that shame etc) but once I learned how to get up I kept trying until I no longer SI . You fell down. Now you need to learn to get up. I don't think you are a failure. You are very articulate with your words and obviously very bright. It might be time to enter treatment or if you are in treatment meet with your pdoc and tell him/her about the difficulties you are having. Things can get better than this. This is just one bad thing . I am sure with time , the proper care and support you will get better.
