In time you'll learn that not everyone has an alternative motive behind the words they say. You've been hurt a lot. She'll help you heal if you stick with it and help her help you. I'm so glad you found someone who understands you. I hope to someday find that but for now I'm trying to get my T to understand me so she can help me understand me which is my own desire. To be understood by me. I'm just so happy for you ^__^