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Eternal_Cat said:
Hello all, I am trying to google a disorder I may have. It involves having thoughts all of a sudden where something really bad happens.

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This sometimes happens to me - only my thoughts involve me causing havoc & malice. I'll be having a nice, normal conversation w/someone, and a little nasty voice speaks up in my head & says, "I bet if I poked him/her in the eye right now, it would really hurt." It's sort of a dry, nonchalant voice that comes up w/these shocking ideas of doing violence to someone... Luckily, I have enough control & willpower (not to mention human decency & compassion) to not act on the ideas - but I can't seem to get rid of them, either. And I feel badly, because the person involved usually hasn't done or said anything to annoy me.



Something that also happens is, for example, my husband will say he loves me & I have a reply pop up in my mind of "No, you're just in it for the convenience", or he'll tell me I'm sexy & I'll think, "You actually think I'm a pox-ridden hog-woman".

I've talked to some of my friends & they tell me they get the same kinds of things happening, usually when they're feeling insecure or under a lot of undue pressure or stress. I don't know if it's just maybe the mind's way of blowing off steam, or 'acting out' without acting out. I'll have to ask my therapist about it next week.