Hi, I'm a cutter. I have been for 2 years. I don't usually post a whole lot about my cutting because of many reasons:

I don't know what to say.
I am always ashamed of what I've done.
I feel like there is nothing anyone can do about it.
I don't like talking about it because it triggers me.
I hate my scars.
I hate feeling helpless.
I hate not being "normal."
I hate hiding myself from everyone.
I hate pretending to be "ok" when I feel like my world is falling apart.
I hate the stares and the questions I get when I actually show my scars in public.

So I deny alot of what I do. I deny myself. I pretend things are fine until I'm alone and then I cut, drink, both, etc.

Anyway, I thought' I'd post something. I've been drinking tonight. I don't think I'll cut tonight.