((((((((Catherine)))))))))
Sometimes we do things for ourselves and I think that is really ok.
Release the bat.....I hope that you were able to get some of your needs met. I appreciate your honesty and openness.

Betrayal
Used by someone you trusted
I know that pain
I know that mixed bag of emotions
All tangled up like a thousand tentacles.....
and the voice of judgment
join with the bat of self punishment

it happens.
and it hurts
and it makes one more cautious
more wary of others
another layer of armor......

i hope that your price is less than pennies.
mine was my very sanity
my very being.
and i'm not sure i will ever get that back.......

I am sending you PEACE
sometimes it isn't what we think it is....
sometimes we have to find it or snatch just a sliver of it
sometimes we have had it all along and just have to re-discover it.

Hugs and PEACE to you my friend