My feelings about my experience seem to be moving from insult and indignance now to REVULSION! when I think of my time in the company of the man. I'm surprised to be feeling this way, but as the scenarios of the two of us together replay in my memory, I am seeing more and more injustice and have felt humiliated from it for a long time now.
I realized I was feeling revulsion today, when walking across the M.U. campus, I realized if I saw him by chance, I would go out of my way to avoid him, do not want to speak to him, much less chat.
I have felt revulsion after recovering from other relationships since my divorce of 8 years ago. I didn't think it would happen in my thoughts of this man. Maybe it is my way of getting over it....I just know, if it comes, it is with finality, and I will not care a whit about him after I have processed these feelings.
Has anyone else experienced this cycle? I recognize it as a recurring theme with me.
Seeker