((((((Catherine)))))))
Those old tapes----oh how loud they can be!!!!
I tried once to write down what they were saying---that was really
stupid for me---found myself under the desk in a hysterical heap.
Poor H--He didn't know what to do except hold me and let me
weep till there was nothing left.
guess seeing them on paper was not a good healing activity

I know how important it is to find a safe nurturing place and not be
the "leader" or "teacher"......find myself in that role way too often.
then i think i have to live up to that by helping everyone else and
minimize my own needs.......talk out of experience and NOT give
myself away too much that i am struggling now.
but that meets the "how much do i trust someone anyway"
even in T i don't tell all.....

is there a way for ppl like me/you to find a "place" or a "way" to
express, feel safe, be accepted, and for me anyway--not feel i have to be there to support everyone else and put my own things aside????

just ramblings
just my thoughts