I left a message for T and told him that I am so sad right now, and that I'm anxious about feeling disconnected tomorrow...and I told him if there IS a disconnect, it's ALL me being crazy, because NOTHING has happened to cause a disconnect, at ALL. The connection has been really good lately, and I know T works ridiculously hard with me.

A week without seeing him and with barely any contact in between feels really distant and strange to me. Not normal.

Ugh, I am SO SAD. I have this pain in my chest all the time, like I'm always on the verge of tears. I'm not even 100% sure what I'm sad about. My schedule with my kids is just nuts, so I am running from early in the morning until late at night, leaving not much time to FEEL. When things slow down, there it is. The sadness. I almost feel like I've never felt this sad.