I meet with a vocational counselor or Friday. I got tired of relying on social services to provide for myself when I know I can do it. I can get away from the things I see everyday:

drug abuse/addiction, sociopath's trying to screw with my mind, stress over not being able to pay my bills, seeing the homeless everywhere (so depressing). It's like the people threw themselves away or something. In a way, I feel like I have done that as well.

I don't want to have to rely on social services. I know I can work again. I have an appointment with a vocational counselor on Friday...Friday cannot get here soon enough. I feel like I am dying inside and it feels terrible.

I don't even feel like I am living my life...just stagnating. Can't stand it!

I need to hear from some people who can give me some hope. I am a highly trained administrative assistant that has worked in various fields. Haven't worked in three years. I'd even take a minimum wage job right now to pull me out of this.

If anyone has ever felt like this, I'd like to hear from you. Or at least get some encouragement from others.

Can anyone help?

Love,
Ladywolf