Since last semester ended.... and then I bumped into her today. Let me give you a little bit of a precursor here.

-- insert financial school rant (I swear its relevant)

At my University they reserve jobs for indiv's who need academic assistance, but in order to be eligible to apply you need to complete this assessment of needs form. So I did all that, and a week later I got an email telling me I wasn't approved and that if I had any questions I should make an appointment with a financial aid counsellor.

So today I show up there, and the women ends up telling me that I filled out my application wrong because I crossed off the spot for parental support. She told me based on my parents saleries I should be receiving X amt of money for them, and when I told her I didn't receive any, she proceeded to go on about how we needed to prove that etc etc.

So basically I was told that although I need the money, technically my parents can "afford" to help me, and as a result I am not eligible to work this semester and help pay my way through school....

(end of financial rant)

Anyhow I was so extremely angry and frustrated that (though much resistance) my eyes started watering up.... apparently thats my body's way of dealing with stress.

So once I finally left the office, I found a quiet washroom and, well... let me body deal with this stress. ugh!

I then wandered up to the Employment counselling office (which happens to be next to the counselling services office) and I more or less ended up stumbling in there to make an appt with my T.

But while I was waiting in line, my T walks out, goes to another room behind the main desk, and then comes out to greet me.

I was so overwhelmed I don't even know what to say. She made small talk asking how much summer was, and commenting on my tan, but the whole time all I could think of was "holy crap my T is standing right here in front of me, and I feel like ****, but I'm happy to see her, but I don't want her to see me feeling like ****, wtf!" (pardon my french....)

So I now have an appt booked for tomorrow morning... I am having so many feelings right now. I'm really (obviously) looking forward to it but I have no idea where to start, and I'm just feeling so many mixed feelings from a variety of events and .. ahhhh *smacks forehead*

Anyhow, I just needed to tell SOMEONE because I have no one else to tell.

Thanks for listening if you got this far...
Jacq