dreamland, i'm sorry you feel that way. i wish you didn't feel that way, cause i feel the same way sometimes and it hurts. it just keeps repeating the same message we've been taught when we were tiny, and i'd rather not deal with it anymore.

but sometimes our minds just automatically go to that pattern of thinking, and it takes a bit of convincing to get out of it, or to begin the path of thinking otherwise.

hope this makes sense, my point was that you've got a lot of evidence here that what you feel is quite common, so there is no need in thinking you are a jerk or selfish. to be honest, i think you were really brave voicing your feelings.


twilight