Hi William,

You are not alone in this - I go through that also, I give you credit for being able to brave the relationships. First, with ex boyfriends I have gone through this and even with friends that I have had an argument with but settled things if I have not heard I get crazed.

I was living with my now (ex) but he and I had an talk about where our relationship was going. I was so terrified that he was going to walk out that I became really clingy. The next day when I got home from an errand our room was rearranged and I went nuts crying, trying to call him and became completely useless for most of the day. When he came home I found out that he just felt like things needed a change and wanted to suprise me.

I am learning in therapy that I have dependancy and abandonment issues that stem from childhood. Therapy is really helping me out with looking at my relationships and soothing that child within that gets terrified.

Meds are also helpful but I strongly recommend therapy and also talking to your girlfriend. The panic is awful and terrifying but I think with professional help you can get past this. I know once the thoughts start they are hard to control and then the panic/anxiety sets in but there is help out there.

Keep us posted!