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Originally Posted by Sannah
Sounds like you know very well what is going on with you about this. This is very good. I guess to resolve it you will need to examine those feelings that you are avoiding. I know that you are waiting for a better T right now (and I read your thread in the Psych forum and I agree with you, she doesn't sound like a good T for you). Examining feelings from the past sometimes needs good support.......... (I think that T can't deal with your feelings because she has never dealt with her own. Just my opinion.......)
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I agree Sannah. I feel guilty and sorry for her that I am leaving. I feel like even tho she has done a lot of weird things, she has put time, effort and caring into me and now I will leave her. But I cut more b/c of my h. I think. Or maybe it was the last straw. I dont know. I feel very strong urges tonight to cut. I cant say if I will but I dont want to and I think the only way not to will be to talk to my h (not about cutting) and be on good terms. We are not on good terms this past week. Im tryng. If I dont consciously try not to I will do it. If I keep it in my mind that I dont want to then it will be easier. I dont know if this makes any sense.