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Originally Posted by clk6
Dream- It is overwhelming but great that you are able to access some memories now. But how can it not be real? Do you mean in the sense that they were fuzzy to you? I have had flashbacks and they are very powerful and I feel as if I am there. Some csa memories I have seem a little fuzzy. I asked my t once about that fuzziness and I said it seems as if it could be my imagination. But I know for sure that it is real and not my imagination. She said to me, "Could it be your imagination?" I felt like she didnt believe me and that partiucular memory/incident I never brought up again.
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clk, that's awful that your T asked if it could be your imagination. Even though my T didn't outright answer my question of "are they real", she showed me that my feelings were real just by wanting to know more - at one point, she even got this very quick horrified look on her face at what I was describing, very unusual for my T, and then she recomposed herself.
The reason I didn't know if they were real or not is because they came to me just as I was about to fall asleep, and each flashback wasn't tied to anything else - like I could see the scene, but I had no idea what happened before or after, or exactly how old I was. It's hard to describe. But I do remember how my mother's voice sounded when she yelled at me in one of the flashbacks, so I think at least one of them is real.
Sorry, hangingon - don't want to hijack your thread, I'll stop there.
