Thanks (((((((((((((PC Friends)))))))))))))))) for all of your wise thoughts and kind words

I love all of you too
T left me a LONG (5 minute!) message (I think he loves leaving messages because I can't interrupt him!) and towards the end he said that maybe instead of working on making the choice to believe I am loved, that we need to back up and maybe I could just admit the possibility that I might be loved. Just to accept that it might be POSSIBLE. I might be able to do that.
He said a lot of stuff about how deserving I am of love, etc. THAT is something that I can't accept.
But I guess I can try to believe that it's POSSIBLE.
I am so lucky that T works so hard with me. I don't know how (or why) he does it, seriously.