I am trying to find a therapist...but every time I make an appointment I get really afraid and end up finding an excuse not to go....ugg...

I would love to come to Wed nights but I work every wednesday

Anyway...I'm not doing well tonight...whenever I drink I get very emotional...and tonight I saw my ex....and he didn't say a word to me...and it's triggering me so bad...I think I'm going to cut tonight....I'll try my best not to...maybe I will talk to my roommate...but idk...I'm so shy and so scared of talking to ppl about my cutting becuz they just freak out....that I have stopped relying on others and have reverted to dealing myself...