oh, silly sausage, come here for a hug ((((((((fallenangel))))))))).

i think seeing your campus T is a GREAT idea!!

as you might know, i see Austin-T solely to focus on uni stuff - time management, exam anxiety, procrastination, obsession/compulsions that interfere with me doing the task at hand.

it was actually pdoc's idea for me to see someone else - he knew that there was just too much going on for us to work on uni as well, but uni was a really important thing for me to get under control.

so yeah - i think seeing someone separate for a very focussed issue could be really beneficial. i think it's especially promising that there is a SI group that you might be able to get into.

i dont think your T will be offended, at all. in fact, i think she will probably celebrate your initiative in recognising the limitations of your current therapy with her, and finding a promising solution. all she wants is for you to get well. it is not her fault, or your fault, that there are other more pressing issues you need to deal with in your time with her. that's just the way things have worked out.

i think it would be nice if you let your T know about this, otherwise you will feel guilty. and you need to let her know, because i am certain that you are doing nothing wrong, and that she won't see it that way either. you aren't betraying her, sweetie. you're taking control of your own direction in therapy, recognising your needs and how to meet them. that's real growth!

i'm feeling all bubbly and happy and excited about this potential avenue of help for you. i wish you could feel the same way about it too .