(((((Oh, Coconut )))))- Please take gentle car of yourself and be safe. Treat yourself lovingly, please DId the docs take good care of you?

I know how hard that can be- I recently had a prob with SI and its a continuous struggle. Even if you cant think of yourself in a loving way, please know that I do and we all do here

Sunny- I have to find someone specialized in ED- I thought my t was a that person! But apparently not. This psych place has therapists that do Ed and I thought the therapists looked too young from the pics on their website, but I'll go check again. I cant see someone real young....there is soeone else but she is a good 45 min away from me.
Ive had endless treatment for bulimia, but i am not bulimic now and its been a real long time since I did any of that. Anorexia seems to be a final frontier- controlling my food and feelings so Im not out of control. I think it is about trusting and letting go. Im terrified.

Tree- You are right. It seems to always be the first order of business that I cannot work on much unless my brain is nourished, I know that but I cant seem to feel comfortable enough to act on what I know. I had breakfast this morning...blah! What is IOP? Like a more intensive outpatient thing? It would probaby help. I did that years ago for aftercare after I got out of rehab for bulimia. It was so helpful to get constant support. I stopped all those behaviors and my weight was normal. I feel like I need a babysitter.